urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:alex_stanfield alex_stanfield alex_stanfield 2006-04-03T02:39:41Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:alex_stanfield:1701 2006-04-03T02:39:41Z 2006-04-03T02:39:41Z Im not gonna cry no more<br />Im not gonna look to the sky no more<br />My heart has turned cold<br />All because you were so bold<br />That night i talked to god<br />but he didnt talk back<br /><br /><br />I HATE YOU<br />i cant believe you said that<br />i know i fucked up bad<br />but if it would have been you<br />i would have never said those words no matter how bad<br /><br />im not asking for a chance<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />yeah i did it again urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:alex_stanfield:1458 2006-03-24T07:01:09Z 2006-03-24T07:01:09Z Yeah so today I did a good deed and got my Brother into PLC by being a smooth operator. And i am starting to feel like i am matureing and it really sucks. and also i was talking to Miss Ford my Science facilitator and she has published a book. It is called "No Wooden Nickles" i have no clue what it is about but i want it. and she is gonna help me get my poetry published or try and get it published. anyways other than that my day sucked i had to wait in the rain and cold for an hour for a ride from school tonight and i sat at the emergency room till 3am this morning. and i havnt slept yet. well good bye urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:alex_stanfield:1139 2006-03-17T07:11:40Z 2006-03-17T07:11:40Z yeah today kinda was kool. i broke up with brandi casue i kinda fell out of love with her. and i went in had ice cream with two wonderful people and i found out the difference between malts and shakes. and i started writing my book finally i have been wanting to start for a long time. but i just started today and i feel good about it. the only thing that had me down today was it started raining and we couldnt do much. but it stopped and i found about a bunch of problems going on between people and i am very glad that i am drama free. For Now anyways. and i am looking forward to this weekend to party and ketchup with friends and shit. but i met someone for the second time and the feelings are still there and i am anxcious to see what happens next casue im not sure if she has the same feelings for me? but i dont watn to ask.im scarred. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:alex_stanfield:993 2006-03-09T08:30:55Z 2006-03-09T08:30:55Z I know its wrong but i just don't care <br />i can't help the way i feel when your near<br />you make me happy and you never make me sad, your charm and good looks can't be compared <br />you are the light of the show the beam in my heart and your not next to me so im falling apart<br />you make me feel things i never felt before and because of that i want you even more<br />i wish the situation was different, i wish I'd met you before, i wish i never met her and would not have to suffer anymore, but because i am taken i have to let it be, and you never know what the future has in store for you and me